Look up and down!

Here I go again....

I am starting the 2468 diet tomorrow and I can't fail this time! I hit rock bottom this weekend and I have got to lose weight!!

NO BULLSHIT! 

I will stay motivated.

Okay...today is the first day of my diet....So far so good!  

I need to kick my ass into shape!


Breakfast:                    Calories         Fat             Carbs

Soup                                 70                1.5                11
Pita Chips                      110                 5                  13   

......I know that is a lot so far....but I am not going to be snacking!!!  

Lunch

Lean Cruisne                 300               8                 22
Diet Coke                         0                  0                   0

I drive myself crazy!!  I complain, complain, and complain about my weight but I don't do shit about it!  I do not understand why I do this!!!  I get motivated for a day or so and then cravings start "stalking" me!  I then binge, purge, and feel like a damn failure.  

Tomorrow will be different!

I have always had a weight issue!  I was so lucky last year and I lost about 30 pounds (I no idea how!!).  I felt great and I looked really good!  I was happy.......I am now at my heaviest I have ever been and I am fucking miserable!!  I have watched the pounds pile on over the past few months and haven't don't anything about it!  I don't know why???

So.....today I think I really have hit rock bottom!  My co-worker told me that I have gained weight.......as he put it, "Really filling out."  My feelings are so hurt and I am truly embarassed!  Does everyone think this about me???  

He also said, "J-LO called and she wants her ass back."  Damn that was a stab!

I am serious!!  I need to get with the program!!  I have ordered my Stimerex with ephedra and I am ready to rock and roll!!!  

Please help my fat ass!! :)

So this weekend I am going out with some pals of mine......We will be drinking alcohol and I am clueless to what I should drink.....Is Mich. Ultra bad for you?  

What do you all think?  

Thanks for the support!

This is what I ate today...

Breakfast 
Diet Coke
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CRAP, CRAP AND MORE CRAP!

I blew the damn diet!!! 

This was such a rough weekend!  I tried my hardest to start my fast!   I FAILED!!!Everyone stuck food in my face and I was put in a position where I had to eat it.  That is some great dedication isn't it! I suck!!!!!  

I am going to start my diet tomorrow!!! I will be skinny damn it!

Also....I just wanted to write a note thanking everyone for their comments.  The comments and tips have really helped!  

I will keep you posted on my progress! 

Take care all!

I am looking for a support system!  Any ideas, tips, or tricks will be appreciated!  Thanks!

Height: 5'9
Weigh:  173 (I am a huge fat ass!!)
Goal:  115
 
I can not handle being over weight!  I have always had a problem with my weight!  I have gone through periods where I have been happy with myself and stick thin.....to being a cow.  Just call me Bessie the cow! 

Me today....I do not know where the weight came from!  Okay that is a lie....I ate and than I ate some more.  I do know that the weight needs to go!

HELP!